Posts tagged self esteem
Posts tagged self esteem
That’s true for the most popular, liked, nearly-perfect people who have ever lived, as well as for the rest of us.
So don’t go looking for that kind of proof. It never helps anyone, especially you.
Gordon B. Hinckley
For me, at least right in this moment, symptom management is all about:
Therefore I choose to be really proud of the fact that all my luggage is out of the car and that I went and got food for dinner, and I will not focus on the trash that won’t get taken out today and the laundry that will have to wait till tomorrow.
I’m also going to give this month’s Relief Society book group meeting (this evening) a shot, even though I have not re-read the book in question (Dracula) and even though I will be bringing a fairly lame “spooky snack” to share (ants on a log.)
And yes, the Relief Society book of the month is Dracula. I love my ward even though I’m too scared and insufficiently functional to go on Sundays. So far anyway (working on it.)
Not as much as I’d have thought a few weeks ago. We talk a lot about subconscious fears and what, exactly we’re struggling with in my group therapy sessions and some of the classes. And, of course, a lot of this isn’t that subconscious for me. I can almost hear these things in my head like a person is saying them, my self-esteem is so low. So it’s not so hard to know what it’s saying, especially once I get going.butimstillgonnashine replied to your chat: Me and my Inner Critic
THANK YOU SO MUCH. I will give this a try as soon as I get time. I still haven’t identified my critic. Anxiety + senior year = very hard to set time aside for anything. Was it hard to think this way, to actually verbalize your subconscious fears…?
That’s what my case manager had me do with my inner critic. Now that I know a little more about her, I’m constructing dialogues where I try and identify what she would have to say about something, and then responding with a healthy, logical answer that addresses the faulty reasoning behind it.
With a list of all the things I was thinking about before I started crying, and what thoughts those thoughts led to. I’m vaguely curious, in a “crying has sucked all the oomph from my body” way, to see what she says tomorrow.
And with that, I am SO going to bed.
One of the things I have running on my desktop is a cute little photo box that just picks random photos from my hard drive and puts them up.
So right now I’m feeling pretty awful about myself, and can’t honestly say that I don’t deserve to, and yet also I know, intellectually, that as a person who is not fully emerged from an acute bipolar depressive episode, I am almost certainly seeing things with a massively skewed perspective.