Posts tagged inner critic
Posts tagged inner critic
I realized that there’s enough of a separation between all the inner critic posts that it’s probably confusing. So here they all are. I’m going to try and figure out how to add a link to just this tag on my sidebar, because this is an ongoing project, I think.
Not as much as I’d have thought a few weeks ago. We talk a lot about subconscious fears and what, exactly we’re struggling with in my group therapy sessions and some of the classes. And, of course, a lot of this isn’t that subconscious for me. I can almost hear these things in my head like a person is saying them, my self-esteem is so low. So it’s not so hard to know what it’s saying, especially once I get going.butimstillgonnashine replied to your chat: Me and my Inner Critic
THANK YOU SO MUCH. I will give this a try as soon as I get time. I still haven’t identified my critic. Anxiety + senior year = very hard to set time aside for anything. Was it hard to think this way, to actually verbalize your subconscious fears…?
My case manager emailed to say I did a good job on the inner critic thing! Yay!
(I am SO motivated by pleasing others, and yes I know it’s not entirely healthy, but I’ve decided it’s OK to feel good about this.)
That’s what my case manager had me do with my inner critic. Now that I know a little more about her, I’m constructing dialogues where I try and identify what she would have to say about something, and then responding with a healthy, logical answer that addresses the faulty reasoning behind it.
Honestly? I don’t know what I’m supposed to do now! My case manager told me to do it so I did; I’ve emailed her the post and I guess I’ll find out tomorrow? I’ll post when I know.
Introductions Are In Order
This is my current pictorial representation of my inner critic. She’s the ideal me - the one who never screwed up, who is skinny and healthy and wears Brooks Brothers suits and never makes typos. She’s a scientist and a lawyer and the heir apparent to one of the better Senator’s seats. She cooks everything from scratch and eats sensible portions of new and interesting things practically every day. She has four kids who can be difficult, but she always says the right things to them. She never loses track of things or time or what she’s doing, she doesn’t waste or overspend.
She’s adhered to every piece of good advice she’s ever had, and always does better on something every time she does it, not that anyone can ever find anything wrong with what she’s done. Everyone wants to be her friend, and she never forgets any of their names. She’s hiked long treks dozens of times, she rides her bike several times a week, she understands Yoga, she swims, she ice skates. She saves half of what she earns and pays a full tithe and sings in the choir. She is pretty and knows what to do with her hair; her teeth and her birthmark were handled way back when she was a teenager and she’s honestly mostly forgotten about them. She doesn’t need medications, but she takes vitamins just to be safe. She gets her flu shot and has always been a blood donor and fully up-to-date on her inoculations. She’s not scared of needles and gets Pap smears and cholesterol tests done according to the current national guidelines. She loves going to church and parties and knows what to say in every situation.
She is totally amazing and she has absolutely no patience for me.
(This was an assignment from my case manager at IOP, and anyone can steal it, as far as I know, because it’s a really common thing apparently.)