Day 10 - 5 goals that I have for myself.
This is hard! I have so many…
1. Visit Europe.
I have wanted to visit Europe for most of my life. Different parts at different times - right now I’d love to visit the great old cities, London and Paris and Berlin and Rome and Athens and so forth. Other times I want to do something like walk the Way of St. James or do a Baltic tour or a cruise along a major river. But I know that I really would like to freaking visit the continent and/or Great Britain (etc.) at least once.
2. Get married and raise some kids.
I have always wanted a really stable family life. I would really enjoy raising kids and I would really like to have a life partner I could share everything with and do awesome stuff with. I think that, despite everything, I’d actually be pretty good at it.
3. Get a graduate degree.
I really love education, and learning things, and shiny medals and certificates are pretty sweet, too. I would LOVE to be Dr. Demeter. This would also let me become a teacher (preferably at the college level,) which I would also love.
4. Be in complete remission from my bipolar/OCD/anxiety stuff.
I know I can’t ever really be in proper “remission” from the ADHD, but everything else, there is at least in theory a total recovery state that’s possible - feeling completely normal, basically. I know better than to make “being cured” an actual goal; it’s important that goals be SMART and the “a” stands for “attainable” as far as I’m concerned. I’d like for a few months - maybe even a few years - where my disorders are just a thing I take pills for, and not a thing that defines every aspect of my daily life.
5. Have a real backyard.
I wanted to say “own a house,” but that’s a lot of responsibility for a single girl with a serious, chronic mental illness. I’d love to own a house, built to my specifications, with a long long list of truly amazing features. But my goal, for right now, is to have a backyard - a place where I can have a little gazebo and a barbecue and play lawn bowling. My patio is GREAT, and a huge step up (we bought me my first-ever patio furniture yesterday,) but I’d love to have more space of my own.